I think being fickle about e domains is a sickness and i'm obviously suffering from it.

Goodbye again.

(Clickaty click!)

The heart and mind never wants the same things

It's 5 in the morning and i'm up! Well i only slept for 3 hours. I smell my morning breath and it smells kinda good actually haha. A mixture of granola bars and toothpaste. So, i must boast that i'm finally done with breaking dawn! It took me forever to finish it but i'm done done done. My mind's been so distracted on the book i bought almost a week ago so finishing BD required alot of concentration, peace and quiet which was all attained at a boring day at work. Besides all that, my life's been quite relaxed with all the car rides to and fro i've been getting the past few days hehe. I doubt my mother's good intentions for my safety because before this, she never had the reason or will to pick and fetch me. Or maybe i'm just paranoid, again. That's been happening a lot lately.
Anyway! I have a tubmlr. Actually, i've always had one but never really did find time to post. For those of you who have been wondering where i get my headers and images from, i'll be posting them on my tumblr really soon so go seeeee.
(click to turrr-uhm-b-ler)

Skin of the day!

Just about 5 minutes ago, i turned my laptop on just so i could listen to one song. Then i thought i'd log onto blogskins and...now i can't stop smiling because i got another SOTD! Thank you everyone =) Haha that just made my day. Honestly, thank you all so much for the downloads and favourites!
xoxo

GossipGirl

For lovers of gossipgirl, I hope you've at least caught the sneak peak of the season finale! I've watched parts of it and my personal favourite, the ending is simply magical. Its something everybody's been waiting for. Some of you might have watched it already. to the rest, start hunting! =)

Visit every room

Everyone is a house with four rooms. Spiritual, mental, physical and emotional.
We usually only live in one.
Which one do you live in?

Experimented change

Today's a new day and i'm shedding off the hate for something else more worthy.

I was told long ago by a man who said my trust was his life line, that he'd love me forever under all circumstances, a man whose heart is made of pure gold and love, the only man where my heart has grown into, my knight in shinning armor, my aid. I'm lucky to be his princess.
So, dear man, I love you. Happy Birthday.

Every aching wound will cauterize and bruise

Mood, spare me mercy and just kill me argh. My mind feels tangled up as if its been clawed and meddled with like a ruined ball of wool. My thoughts mixed up, my head hurts, but they just won't leave me alone. Maybe its cause i don't want them to. To the 2 people in the world who i am clearly starting to detest, i hope you know who you are. The fact that you both have no sense of reponsibility or sensitivity, it initially disgusted and upseted me to put you both under the same category though it only seems right now. All this while, i thought one of you at least had a heart or a thought of decency to spare. I sit here, killing myself alive wondering what's happening, how, when, what. I am vaguely aware subconciously that i'm being yanked apart partially by my thoughts but i can't help myself. My mind's too clustered and concentrating on the pain in disappointment i feel comes as almost painless, like i'm on anesthesia. Party 3 made a bullet point i can't believe i allowed myself to overlook. I always had confidence in being thorough with my thoughts, now it seems to me that perhaps party 4 is right. I look deeper into my thoughts and ponder hard about the details. Which so far, hasn't made my life any better. I've always been expecting perfection in my thoughts, clearing every single doubful detail to leave me clear minded and sure of what i wanted. Instead, all it did was clothed myself with disappointment and graze.
Sometimes in life you've gotta lie to yourself to believe. After all, lie comes right in the middle of believe.
I've been telling myself to let go and i promise whoever reads this, I will.
I just need to sort both my head and hurt out.

6 in the morning i'm still awake. Stretches.
>> 1245pm, supposedly ready to jet & here i am listening to lady gaga on repeat, with a towel turban on my head. Yawn, i'm sleepy. Sleep wasn't the best, i didn't dream of anything pleasant haha.
Will update l8r, buaiz!

Sympathy

Hey blogger! I'm back and i've missed you so much. Lj maybe better in so many ways but blogger's the only blogging domain for me haha.
Anyway, for my coming back post, i'd like to remind a friend of mine how much she means to all of us and that we're not a bunch of fabricated beings.
Natasha,
Maybe you have forgotten everything we've been through. Though i'm not your closest friend and probably not one that understands you completely, you need to know that you were never a disappointment to us. The weight of your misinterpretations will not be on our backs. You have to know that we are not responsible for the pain you're going through right now. We've never redempted you, neither have we given up on you. Us leaving you out the last few times was done to hopefully paint a clearer picture for you that we're not the alternate friends you turn to when your heart is hurt, your eyes swollen and when you have no one else to turn to. We're always here, watching and ready to catch you if you slip or fall in life like we've always been. Nothing has changed, you have. Maybe your vision's blurred but your personal ideology in one boy has drifted us apart but still, we're a circle that revolves arounds you. So many years we've shared is going to waste. As a friend, i'm hurt and i honestly know what you're going through. Life is never a bed or roses, everybody knows that but never quites understand it till they experience it themselves. Everybody has problems, we deal with them and not deface ourselves from the world to hide our vulnerabilities. Instead, we get up on our two feet and deface our problems. We don't let misery work its way around us. Your heart feels crushed, broken and way beyond repair. We don't need to be scientists to see that. If your decision is to neglect, we promise to never relegate you. We will always be here, still by your side, ready to be your safety net. We're not hoaxes, we're your friends, always have been. I hope you read this post and find a little good and understanding in yourself to try and sympathize as we have been trying to sympathize with you.
-d

4 a m

I've been too lazy to blog, tired and caught inbetween two blogging domains. The past few days have been the roughest i've ever had in a really long time. I've definitely been better. I'm glad everything's pretty much ironed out now. So moving the spotlight, how have you readers been! Thank you so much for visiting my page everyday checking to see if there's an update. If i do move to lj, add me up alright? Okay, besides having the roughest of times, i've been hooked onto a facebook game that i might just be starting to get tired of. It's the sorority life! Fighting with other houses, accessorizing in the mall bejeweled style and spending lots of money to glam yourself up is extremely way off reality! which i love. Also, i've resumed to watching the remaining gossipgirl episodes that i've been missing the past few weeks. Does anybody know where to download HD episodes? I'm dying to know. Oh, do visit nobodyrests too! I updated it last week with icons, banners and a couple of my favourite images. Snag them if you like =)
Back to my update, Sunday was great. I went to church, the usual haha, had a great dinner with Sean and sent my brother and his girlfriend back to her hostel to prepare for the upcoming week of school. Its been forever since i had some alone time with Sean and playing arcade bowling on his cell was eggcitingly thrilling haha. To sum it all up, over the course of the past few days, i got to know how much i was appreciated in my relationship, found out my reasons for wanting to keep it, adored Stephanie Meyer ever more, cooked supper for 3, got to spend quality time with a good friend, had japanese cuisine and vereh sinful diced beancurd and roasted duck, impressed myself by taking my vitamins daily, appreciated things i never did, & realise that when the food's on your plate, the pressure is yours to decide whether to eat it, or leave it.
4ish (am) on a Monday, in just a bit, all you sleepyheads should be up.
Have a great week everyone!
For those feeling lazy, sleep tight.
&&& to all those who are having mid years this week, lucks!
Oh my god, this is an edit. I just realised that today's the 4th and that i have work later on! I just texted my boss to cancel cause my dog's going for her haircut and i've gotta be home when she gets back.
Hopefully they aren't mad at me.
I HATE WORK. somebody, save me.
Yes yes, goodnight for reeeel this time.
-d